Grace and Gratitude

Whilst I was anxiously waiting for a doctor’s check-up at the hospital the other day because of amenorrhea* and how this can be related to my extreme emotionality lately, my sister called to say that she and Mom were on their way to BGC to lunch with me.

They didn’t know that I was going through some sort of existential struggle but God sent them to see me. I was so touched by the instant grace that I received that I started crying like a 3-year old!

You can be a spiritual person but still tell off evil/envious/jealous people, especially those who gossip and back-stab, and those who are so narcissistic that they use your feelings and make it about them. Exorcise their evil-ness in the name of God by saying: “Not today Satan! Not today!”

I grew up in a family of strong women. Everyone with our DNA are expressive, affectionate, outspoken and passionate. We are not rich by the world’s material standards but we are abundant in so many other aspects that we are often a target for the evil eye. It is a challenge to be authentic in a world wherein being pretentious is the norm. This experience is not unique to me. We all sacrifice part of ourselves to “fit in”.

While having a deeply healing conversation with my mom and my sister, I felt immense gratitude to have them in my life. In turn, I felt gratitude for having full spectrum human experiences for my soul growth.

Breath in love, breath out forgiveness. Inhale grace and exhale gratitude.

*The doctor prescribed meds and to come back for tests after two weeks depending on my response to the meds.